jennylicious!!

A colleague here at the office saw this blog and she was utterly shocked when she read the entries. She couldn’t believe that I can write all these stuff and she was even more surprised to know that I can compose a sonnet! As a challenge (and proof that I myself write these entries here), she told me to make a sonnet for her – a sonnet especially for her. I had the most difficult time figuring out what to write – the mood, the emotion and the setting. Then, while in the shower, the words “it’s been a while” just kept on repeating in my head and I just thought about her since it’s been more or less 3 months since I last saw her. Then one thing led to another and the culmination of everything was eternia – my latest sonnet made for her…

I just gave her the sonnet and asked for permission if I can post it here. Once I get approval, I’ll post it immediately.

Btw, if you’re wondering bout the title, jennylicious is her pen name ^_^

life through a digital glass

I am so obsessed with the new digital camera that I just had and I immediately planned and schedule a “photoshoot”. I thought of capturing some natural and candid shots that expresses how I felt at that certain time. Then it was settled: the location was at the bridge, subject was the sunset and the everyday juan dela cruz passing by and the time was roughly 5 p.m. Upon arriving at the bridge, I immediately saw a perfect shot with a perfect backdrop. I was astounded as I didn’t expect that to happen so sudden. It was some leaves/tress with the backdrop of our enormous lake. I’d like to blur on the leaves but it was not to be done on the digital camera that I have. The location of the setting sun wasn’t the one that am looking for thus I had to improvise. I wanted a shot similar to those mushy movie where the sun is setting in the middle of the ocean. But in my case, the setting sun was way off the center but it’s beautiful nonetheless. I got a few nice ones (well at least in my own opinion) while experimenting on the settings. Different settings yielded different results (ddduuuhhhh) so I just took shots using different settings to see which one’s the best. A couple of passerbies are staring at what am doing as this (photoshoot) wasn’t done on a regular basis (like what I mentioned, photography here is not a profession). Then this phrase just came out of nowhere “a long day’s work” that inspired me to capture a shot of those who are passing by. I have this one shot with a mother and his child but the one that I liked was manong carrying loads of I dunno what. Hopefully I can post them here so I can show you guys what I’ve been upto and so you can say the stuff about the shot that I took.

Next stop… sunrise at the bridge ^__^…

a window to a new and better perspective

After 88 years worth of waiting, I finally got my claws on my very own digital camera. This is the very first photography equipment that I OWN. The digital camera that I bought ain’t that high-end nor spectacular but at least now that I own one, I can just take some pictures away whenever I deemed necessary!

Upon receiving this early Christmas gift, I took a shot of the cybergate tower and I was satisfied with what I had (with regards to the shot and how the camera took it). It’s no DSLR but I wanna use this camera as if it was one. I wanna maximize the cam’s functions and use it to its fullest. The shots that I will have will most certainly suffer (concerning with the lighting and stuff) but am planning to take a couple of shots in different angles. I played with the cam’s exposure and the different flashes for me to see which setting will fit the scenario that I have in mind. Am planning to take some sunrise/sunset shots on the following weeks and we’ll just see how it will turn out. Am planning to hone my skill on this genre (even with a digital camera in hand) and hopefully I can venture more on this department. Photography here in the Philippines ain’t considered as a profession as compared to other places but this is what I want to do (for the moment).

Here’s the cam that I bought (and is yet to be paid)… I like the wide 3-inch display.

The possibility of fallin for the one you don’t know

Time and time again, this fatal mistake had been constantly being made. In the first place, why fall for someone that you haven’t met, someone you don’t know? What is the probability of fallin for someone you don’t know (probably high) and what is the possibility and certainty that it will last?

From this day onwards, I will officially share to you a new entity in my story and I gave her a pen name of the photographer.

A completely unknown and insignificant life form, the photographer was given by my loving cousin and I thought “I’d give it a shot. I’ve nothing better to do..”. Frightfully slowly, she slithered her way in my life and making her presence felt in every single moment that I can think of. I fell for her friendly and playful manner, her caring and concerned character, her outgoing and onii-chan attitude. As evident from the handle that I gave her, she has this innate talent when it comes to photography but failed to pursue it during her days but is now rekindled due to the frequent talks that we had. The photographer also shares the same talent as I do when it comes to writing. Other than the jennesis, insomniax and sampaguita, she is the only entity that I shared my sonnets with and was deeply appreciated. Those sonnets meant everything to me because they hold what I care the most in my heart. They encompass what my thoughts are, how I feel and the struggles am fighting and for me to share those stuff to someone, they must be one important entity or one that I hold so dear. I just love it when she checks if am home or if I’ve already eaten or how’s my sleep. These simple and stupid things somehow and someway meant something to me… the only missing in the photographer’s asset is her ability to like anime and Japanese culture… in due time, I will introduce her to that fantastic world via the toycon 2008!

kira: am so damn lazy… dunno what to do anymore…
the photographer: Think of something that will inspire or motivate you..
kira: hhmmm… in that case, for me to be inspired and motivated, you gotta stay in my head a little bit longer deal!?
the photographer: hhhmm.. it’s upto you how long I will stay on your mind…
kira: will that option include forever?!


I know, I know… it’s cheesy!! Especially for a guy like me but I got carried away in the conversation >__<…

taking flight?

During my early days, I tried to venture outside the country and seek other opportunities elsewhere, namely Singapore… I’ve been there once to survey the local and the culture and I fell in love to the place… when I left Singapore, I made a vow that I will return someday and stay there for good! Weeks pass, then months, then years, until the desire eventually laid low and had been dormant in my heart.

Last Sunday, an unexpected question were asked by my folks, “when will you be venturing overseas!?”. Something just sparked and I just muttered “if you’d like, am gonna leave tomorrow.”, in a playful banter. “Why all of these all of a sudden!?” was the thing that kept repeating in my head. And as if on queue, the folks sez “we are not getting any younger, the business aint doing so good, we have enough for food but we haven’t got any to finish the house.”. I didn’t know what to say to them… it just ended with that last phrase… that last phrase that had been playing over and over again in my head. I eventually had a trouble dozing off and kept thinking over and over again. Am confused not only what to do in this dilemma but more importantly, I dunno what to do with this garbage of a life that I have!

I have the impending resignation to the company and because of what transpired, am having these doubts that maybe I shouldn’t file the resignation just yet. That I need this job a little longer. Truth be told, this job ain’t gonna build the house for sure! The job only provides solution to the basic expenses but if you look at it, am losing valuable time that I can use to do something productive.

I dunno what else to do! Can somebody just kill me? Please!! Am dead serious!

What’s in a dream!?

“I’ve been havin these dreams lately… like, is any of these for real… or not!?”
                                                                - Sora (Kingdom Hearts I)


If a dream is the gateway to a man’s soul, does that mean I have one (a soul that is)!? And if that be true, then what does my soul hold? What’s it screamin about!? And in the first place, what is a soul?! How do I use mine?

Come into my dreams and see my soul….

A couple of weeks ago
I’ve trouble in sleeping (as usual) and my bags are as dark as the void in my heart. When I finally had my blissful slumber, I arrived in an unknown land commonly referred to as the dreamland. It is in here that I saw the jennesis’ face once again! After decades of not seeing each other, here she is, standing in front of me. I once again saw her smile which I dubbed “a smile that can give strength to the faintest”, her illuminating radiance brought forth by the serenity of her voice and her long, pitch-black locks. It is in here that we spend our time together with nothing in our heads: no commitment, no worries, no nothing… just good ol’ plain fun… I looked at her face the whole night and kept on gently smiling… this scenario eventually repeated itself for the next few days…

Last week
Upon arriving at the dreamland, I immediately searched for the jennesis but I wasn’t able to find her. Instead, I saw dazzling display of color, life and character. I was easily drawn to this vibrant aura and had forgotten about the lost jennesis. As I traverse this illuminated pass, a figure so familiar came right before my very eyes. I saw her at the photoworld asia where she strutted her stuff, I came about her profile in a cosplay site and I finally got the chance to personally see her and take some pictures during the recent ozinefest… yes! It was the cheerful and vibrant riadox07. I was awed and humbled by her presence (both in the dreamland and real life). We cosplayed and costripped all throughout the night. I fixated my eyes on her for the longest of time as this maybe the closest that am gonna get to her.

Last night
Being so excited on filing my resignation, I fell asleep with this thought in mind. When my sub-conscious reached the dreamland, a stage beckons right in front of me. Upon arrival, I found out that it is our team’s (my colleague here in the office) presentation. I first saw Kathrine with a question and answer type of layout which she answered effortlessly (as always and because it was scripted). As a finale, a video presentation was shown and it is in there that I found out that I am the one that made the entire presentation with me as the protagonist. I couldn’t possibly watch the presentation that I myself made, probably fear of the audience’s reaction but it turned out OK. Upon waking up and being back in the 3-d real life, I thought to myself “I sure am gonna miss those guys once I bid adieu”.


Now what do you see in my soul? And as Sora said and I quote “is any of these for real… or not!?”.

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Toycon 2008

I gotta catch my breath!! Ozinefest just finished and we have already an announcement for the next big con! Toycon 2008 will be held at SM Megamall Megatrade Hall 2-3 on June 14-15. This will be my first Toycon and I dunno what to expect, other than having a good time ^_^… Nico Cardenas, an avid fan of toys and action figures, were at the event last year and he had the pleasure of seeing the immortal cosplayer, alodia! Since this is a “toy convention” per se, am looking forward to tons and tons of action figures both from the western and the Japanese. Am also hoping that this is the place where I can finally see, feel and buy my elusive school rumble action figures (provided that I’ve enough money).

Details are all fuzzy as of the moment so I’ve no idea with regards to the booths, side events and ticket price. If you are to attend this convention, I’d suggest to frequently check their official site at http://www.toyconph.com/ for any latest and official update.

This might also be the con where I will accompany and introduce a new entity with a pen name of the photographer! Don’t you dare miss her as she might be the one to change my life *devil-ness*

Eight lies of a mother

This was sent by a colleague of mine and I like to share them to you guys… this may or may not touch your heart (mine did), but I promise you that it will be worth your while!

This story begins when I was a child: I was born poor. Often we hadn't enough to eat. Whenever we had some food, Mother often gave me her portion of rice. While she was transferring her rice into my bowl, she would say "Eat this rice, son! I'm not hungry."
This was Mother's First Lie.

As I grew, Mother gave up her spare time to fish in a river near our house; she hoped that from the fish she caught, she could give me a little bit more nutritious food for my growth. Once she had caught just two fish, she would make fish soup. While I was eating the soup, mother would sit beside me and eat the what was still left on the bone of the fish I had eaten, My heart was touched when I saw it. Once I gave the other fish to her on my chopstick but she immediately refused it and said, "Eat this fish, son! I don't really like fish."
This was Mother's Second Lie.

Then, in order to fund my education, Mother went to a Match Factory to bring home some used matchboxes which she filled with fresh matchsticks. This helped her get some money to cover our needs. One wintry night I awoke to find Mother filling the matchboxes by candlelight. So I said, "Mother, go to sleep; it's late: you can continue working tomorrow morning." Mother smiled and said "Go to sleep, son! I'm not tired."
This was Mother's Third Lie

When I had to sit my Final Examination, Mother accompanied me. After dawn, Mother waited for me for hours in the heat of the sun. When the bell rang, I ran to meet her.. Mother embraced me and poured me a glass of tea that she had prepared in a thermos. The tea was not as strong as my Mother's love, Seeing Mother covered with perspiration; I at once gave her my glass and asked her to drink too. Mother said "Drink, son! I'm not thirsty!"
This was Mother's Fourth Lie.

After Father's death, Mother had to play the role of a single parent. She held on to her former job; she had to fund our needs alone. Our family's life was more complicated. We suffered from starvation. Seeing our family's condition worsening, my kind Uncle who lived near my house came to help us solve our problems big and small.

Our other neighbors saw that we were poverty stricken so they often advised my mother to marry again. But Mother refused to remarry saying "I don't need love."
This was Mother's Fifth Lie.

After I had finished my studies and gotten a job, it was time for my old Mother to retire but she carried on going to the market every morning just to sell a few vegetables. I kept sending her money but she was steadfast and even sent the money back to me. She said, "I have enough money."
That was Mother's Sixth Lie.

I continued my part-time studies for my Master's Degree. Funded by the American Corporation for which I worked, I succeeded in my studies. With a big jump in my salary, I decided to bring Mother to enjoy life in America but Mother didn't want to bother her son; she said to me "I'm not used to high living."
That was Mother's Seventh Lie

In her dotage, Mother was attacked by cancer and had to be hospitalized. Now living far across the ocean, I went home to visit Mother who was bedridden after an operation. Mother tried to smile but I was heartbroken because she was so thin and feeble but Mother said, "Don't cry, son! I'm not in pain."
That was Mother's Eighth Lie.

Telling me this, her eighth lie, she died.
YES, MOTHER WAS AN ANGEL!

M - O - T - H - E - R

"M" is for the Million things she gave me,
"O" means Only that she's growing old,
"T" is for the Tears she shed to save me,
"H" is for her Heart of gold,
"E" is for her Eyes with love-light shining in them,
"R" means Right, and right she'll always be,

Put them all together, they spell "MOTHER" a word that means the world to me.

For those of you who are lucky to be still blessed with your Mom's presence on Earth, this story is beautiful. For those who aren't so blessed, this is even more beautiful.

Life after Ozinefest

Wwhhheeewww!!! The smoke has cleared, the dust has settled and the lights all went out as I saw the conclusion of the 2-day Ozinefest convention held at SM Megamall. There were massive amount of cosplayers, photographers and spectators at the literally overflowing venue! I don’t wanna go into too much detail of the con, bottomline: everybody had fun, they were all upbeat, generous for some picture-taking, great performances and all in all, it was a good con. I’d like to commend the organizers for a good job especially in the entry/exit booths where the problem usually occurs. Staffs at the said booth were awesome and there was literally no line queues! Kudos to you guys!

For complete set of photos, jump into http://tomikovan.multiply.com/photos

Enjoy the pics!

P.S. I saw riadox07 and as expected, she was awesome in her costume and she was generous enough for some picture-taking… too bad I ain’t got the pleasure of talking to her…. /sob

Ozinefest – just around the corner!!!

Finally!! After months of countless sleepless nights and anticipation, the ozinefest is finally upon us!! This year’s ozinefest will be a 2-day event wherein the group cosplay will be on the first day and the individual cosplay on the second. There will be a lot in-store for us (both spectators and cosplayers) as the event boast numerous side-events, raffles, bands and of-course the ever-popular and must-see cosplay skits and catwalks! I really can’t express how I feel as I am bursting with emotions on the upcoming event. I am so psyched to see and meet new friends/cosplayers but I guess all these anxiety will boil down to the cscntrl booth. Basically, the cscntrl booth will sell some anime goodies and I am so looking forward on buying a yakumo (school rumble) and/or code geass action figs! As I see on the cosph forums, there are a lot of cosph members that will attend this year’s ozinefest and hopefully I can see riadox07 and the drop-dead gorgeous and legendary cosplayer known as alodia!! They are the 2 cosplayers that am hoping to have the pleasure of meeting and chatting the most ^_^… incidentally, there will also be another convention on the 6th of April (ozinnefest 2nd day). This convention is the Mangaholix event which I haven’t attended ever since am not much of a fan of manga. There have been a lot of pleads from numerous boards and cosplayers to move the date of the Mangaholix con as the cosplayers themselves are torn between the 2 con. As many have bought the 2-day pre-sold tickets of ozine, I am expecting a ton of attendees in the ozinefest as compared to that of mangaholix.

Ozinefest will be my official 3rd con to attend (as spectator/fan) and am hoping for more to come. Ozinefest will mark my new identity in every con: a photographer ^_^… though I haven’t got that SLR that professionals use, I’ll still do my best to capture that special moment and post them here at this blog!

See you all at the ozinefest!

post to get paid

As I said in my previous entry, I have a god-given gift when it comes to writing and composing. This fact had been evident throughout my high school and college careers where I’ll get a couple of praises with the research that I’ve done (not to mention how I “customized” the composition to give it an edge that screams my name ^_^). I have composed more than 20 sonnets and most (if not all) of it are fueled by my then inspiration – the jennesis. One sonnet I composed entitled “A Day In The Life” had been commended by one of my high school buddies. The piece “a troo stori” (which had been posted here) also garnered a couple of claps and thumbs up, not to mention a lot of controversy. They then wondered why did I took the course IT instead of something that is related to writing like journalism or something and frankly, I don’t even know. I guess am just doing this writing thing for fun and personal satisfaction. But when a friend told me about payperpost, everything had changed… for the better.

I love writing stuff on the net and what better way to capitalize on this fact than being paid by doing the thing/s that I love! As the name implied, all I have to do is to create some quality write-ups on this blog here and I will get paid!! Easy!! What I like about this is that you have the chance to pick the topic that you want to blog about, maintaining the genre that you defined in your site (e.g. personal, tech and the likes). Pay-out will be defined by the advertisers and if you play your cards write, you can make a lot of money within a single month without needing to leave the comforts of your home! But you have to follow their code of blog ethics which is an SOP… Hhhhmm, I wonder what I will do with all that loot!? *daydreams*

Though this fact remains, I am and always will be writing/composing/blogging for personal fulfillment and enjoyment. The money is just an added incentive ^_^…

will you marry me!?

I finished a new composition wooohooo!! I’ve been listening to ellegarden’s music nowadays and was just taken by their song marry me thus the inspiration for the title of my new sonnet… it’s really a funny thing how this sonnet came to life – on my way to office, while I was waiting for the shuttle to pick me up, the first few lines just popped out of my head. Upon arriving here at the office, those few lines are still ringin in my head and before I knew it, my 31st sonnet came to life… Enjoy…

MARRY ME

if I am a tree
will you be my rain?
I want you to be the one
who will wash all of my pain

I want you to be my Misa
if I am to be Light Yagami
we will create a perfect world
fit for both you and me

if I am an ipod player
will you be my mp3?
fill my playlist with your raw emotions
all 160 gigabytes of me

I want you to be my legs
when the time comes that am crippled
for I want to return to the place
where our love unfold

I’d gladly exchange my life
for your untimely demise
I won’t let you off the hook easily
without me asking “will you marry me”

what do you guys think?