a troo stori

" there is no remedy for love but to love more..." - henry david Thoreau

there comes a time in a man's life, like once or twice max, that he meets someone in his entire career and for no reason the more they spend time together, the more he/they realized that their friendship deepens. given enough time, friendship will develop in a special relationship that no one can ever shatter. this particular lad felt what i'm talkin about, as such he was overwhelmed on what he is feeling for her that he can't contain it and keep it all to himself. the lad told the lass a snippet of how he feels for her and for being so bold that he is, he was given the chance to prove his worth, to prove himself to her... so that is what the lad did - he spend everytime and every moment that he possibly can with the lass and they were havin fun (i could tell for i was there) - foolin around, helpin the lass with some of the stuff, goin here and there and just being together and savoring and enjoying their moment... everythin was like a dream, it was all too perfect and when the lad thought that he had proven his worth, a change of pace, a change of fate and a change of heart occurred. what was once happy turned to a frown, all the enjoyment was upside down and everythin he knew was now long gone. the fact that he love(d) her so much is the main reason why he tried to reason out with the lass... and tried... and tried... and tried but to no avail... for the past month and a half, a little over a dozen question mark was on the lad's head including the biggest question: what the hell was the problem?! but only sighs of woe and disappointments was the lad's answer to all of these... the longer he felt this (until at the present) the deeper the cut would seem, the deeper the feelings sink in, the faster the surge is flowing... the lad realized that all the things around him was of no importance, all the things that he does and still is doing are worthless. the lad asked himself "why?! what's wrong with me?" and then he realized that when the lass left him, she took his entire being, his entire world with her and it just pains me to see him suffering like this! i told the lad "what if you're the only one feelin this way while she's out there enjoying herself and doesn't give a sh*t about you or your feelings for her?", the lad gave me a serious, deep look but said not a word and in that instance i dunno whether to feel sorry or to sympathize with the lad... there comes a time when the lad will just push the play button on the player and out of nowhere it would seem that he'll be in the alternate world or sumthin relating to every word of almost any songs... the lad's favorite, a few lines from evanescence's "my immortal" that goes -
if you have to leave, i wish that you would just leave coz your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone.... there's just too much that time cannot erase, and the other one - i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone..... oh and i remember this one from "melodies of life" by emiko shiratori - our paths they did cross but i cannot say just why... we met, we laughed, we held on fast and then we said goodbye...." the lad was torturing himself, in a state of denial and stuck in his past and somehow, someway he enjoys that and there's no other time and place that he'd rather be than there... i know how the lad feels about the girl, i've seen it when they are together, I've seen way the lad cares for her.. he loved her as if there was no tomorrow for him... though there were problems not only with their relationship but also within the lad's zone, he never did show this to her, in fact he was very good at concealing it (he even fooled me), i think he did this in order to make the lass happy and keep their relationship intact coz that was what all he wanted - that at the end of the day he can see his lass smiling and happy then all will be aight... now he looks miserable (i swear!!), he's not quite what he was before and up to this point the lad still ain't got a clue on how to live and how to continue his life, but one thing is certain on the lad's mind - he'll just be here, one step behind the lass catching her when she falls (if she'll ever fall which I highly doubt), he's willing to wait and wating for the lass just like what he did a few years back... the lad vows that his feelings for the lass will never ran out (much like before) and love her all the ways the lad can and expects nothin in return (much like before)... this part i don't understand, why is he or someone else for that matter willing to wait with no certainty that… you know.... the lad can't hide that it hurts - similar in burning in hell - but like in the movies if they are meant to be then it is and time will find a way for both of them... (bull!!) i suddenly said to the lad "this is bull, this is madness and absurd" then he sez to me that he read once in a book that
if love is not madness it is not love at all.. why is he doing all of these?! waiting with no certainty none whatsoever?! a simple explanation from him - you can never teach the/your heart to stop lovin someone you hold so dear in your life...

OUR STAY HERE ON THIS SOIL IS SHORT (THINK ABOUT IT), NOW ASK YOURSELF "ARE YOU GIVIN YOUR LOVE TO SOMEONE WHO TOTALLY DESERVES IT?"

point to ponder: LOVE DOESN'T MAKE THE WORLD GO ROUND, IT IS LOVE THAT MAKES THE RIDE ENJOYABLE AND WORTHWHILE....

Suggestion: try to listen in the song BROKEN SONNET (by hale) while reading piece of garbage… the best!!!!!!