terminal

Terminal

Sa aking pagmuni-muni
Binabagtas ang sakayan
Sadyang di napansin
Isang bukod tanging nilalang

At sa akin ngang pag-upo
Ika’y aking nasilayan
At sa aking labi ay namutawi
Isang lihim na pagngiti

Habang lulan tayo ng sasakyan
Ika’y nakatulog ng d inaasahan
Pagtitig at paghanga ang nadama
Nang makita ang ‘yong inosenteng mukha

Sadyang napakabilis ng pangyayari
At ako’y nawala sa aking sarili
Nang magtama ang ating paningin
Wari ang puso ko ay naglihim

Sa pagbaba mo ng ating sasakyan
Mga mata’y ika’y sinundan
Sana ay bukas muli kang masilayan
Upang malaman ang iyong pangalan


Am sorry if some of you don’t understand this sonnet… I preferred to write it in my native dialect

my sassy girl goes western

The phenomenal Korean hit my sassy girl will now make its way to the western market – as a remake. Girl next door’s elisha cuthbert will play the girl’s role and jesse bradford as gyeon woo.

I dunno if this western remake will live up to the psych and success that the original has. But based on the forums that I’ve been in… well… let’s just say they are less excited with this film. I even heard someone saying he’ll just download the film via torrent. Haven’t watched the trailer myself so I can’t comment on this one but I think I’ll let this one pass or I’ll just stream or download this version of the movie…

Sorry elisha…

a conversation

I sent to the photographer the sonnet that I composed entitled marry me. We had a couple of exchange messages and what’s surreal bout them is that they are in a sonnet form. Enough about the gibberish, just read on….


the photographer’s response to the sonnet:

Your words had me soar
My heart was touched to its core
I feel like opening my door
So I could love you more

Uncertainty is what my mind says
Don't wanna be trapped in a love's mess
Will you promise that I'll be hurt less
If I'd answer you now with a yes?


My response:

words are blurry
am feeling uneasy
moment's uncertain
when to this lass i've fallen

i don't want you to open your door
until you know me some more
please don't say "i love you"
for i'll lose interest in you

don't say a yes
dont say a no
only answer this question
when you considered them all


devilish and arrogant ne!?

going up!?

This is the first picture that I took when I got a hold of my digital camera. This was shot at the condo of my cousin somewhere in quezon city. I just love the city at night! The glitz, the glamour and controversy befit such places. Guess which tower is that and from which place in quezon city?

final fantasy III demystified

After spending 30+ hours, I finally finished final fantasy 3 *crowd roars*!! I was struggling as to which job will be a match for the cloud of darkness (final boss battle). I had a series of job shifts and aimlessly leveling them up but in the end, I found the right combination to finish the job off: a party composed of a sage (black and white magic caster), summoner (to use bahamut and leviathan), geomancer (for terrain, non-elemental magic) and a knight. It was a hard-fought battle and to my surprise, the sage (the only member to be left standing) was the one that finishes everything. It was the least I expected as the intention that I had for the sage will be the main healer of the party. The biggest surprise was that I defeated the cloud of darkness with an item that does a damage of roughly 3k ^_^… when I had lost all hope (since 3 out of the 4 characters were lifeless), the last futile gesture that I thought was to throw one last bit of attack item then watch my last character to bite the dust. And then all of a sudden *kwing* *kwing*… well you get the idea.

This is the second RPG that I finished in my DS and I am currently into WEWY (the world ends with you). This game has some innovative and fresh approach on the gameplay and the best part is it’s not a turn-based rpg wwooohhhoooo!! Am also planning to download tons of rhythm-based game as this is the main reason why I bought NDS over PSP. Until kingdom hearts is to be released, it’s WEWY and rhythm-based games for me ^_^

photography – an expensive art?!

Whenever I mention to my buddies that I’ll shift into photography, they always sez “ayus yan dude! But it’s one expensive hobby!”. Is photography really an expensive art as they say!?

If this will be based on the equips that the pros use, then I would have to agree that this is one helluva expensive hobby. A dSLR camera itself is worth a brand new personal computer (or a new Playstation 3) and that doesn’t include the vast array of lenses (not to mention the tripods). So yeah! If we are to base on this fact, it is very, very expensive! But how come there are those that are only equip with a mere market-standard digital camera and yet they capture nearly as good as those dSLR(s)? These are the types of people that only need a camera and his/her imagination! They have this innate gift when it comes to expression, art, detail and capturing those moments that others would deem not worth of the patience. I’ve seen a couple of photo-blogs using their ixus(well, I guess it’s above market standard ^_^) or powershot digital cameras and I couldn’t believe that the shots were taken by just some mere digital camera.

I found out that instead of figuring out which type of lens to use, let your eyes and imagination do the shots for you. Let it run wild to produce a unique and fresh story of the shot that you took!

I’ve nothing against those who use SLRs (in fact, I want one myself ^_^). I’m just trying to make a point that photography need not be expensive as everybody’s saying.

transmutation

I started blogging since college of 2002 thanks to my good friend thea and satsuki. I really enjoyed it a lot but after a couple of years, I stopped blogging. I stopped not because there is nothing more to write, I stopped because our net connection was cut down. Back then, DSL or broadband never reached our place thus no longer can I update my blog until I’ve forgotten about it.

A couple of months back, I started blogging again (thanks to the connection here at the office) to house all of my rantings and frustrations to this god-forsaken company that I am in. I’ve written a lot of angst and accomplished this blog’s purpose but as time goes by (and I can’t believe that am about to say this), I grew fond not of the company itself but by the company brought forth by the people that I worked here. A small circle of friends began to emerge slowly and I can’t believe that I am enjoying myself thus evolving the purpose of this blog.

This blog became the sanctuary of all those that I can’t say. This blog sez what I can’t speak in spoken words, showed the emotion that I was reluctant to reveal. This blog became the new haven of my stories, sonnets and stupid, cheesy stuff. It is in here that I introduced the very few entities that entered my on-going story and it is in here that I find strength when am lethargic. And now it will undergo yet another metamorphosis.

I’ve been to a couple of cosplay conventions and the initial plan was to be one – be a cosplayer. But that plan all changed when I became the guy behind the lens. When I got hold of my very first camera, I just can’t get enough of taking shots! There a lot of photoblog that I came about and what amazed me was the one that I saw yesterday. She’s no professional and she’s only using a digital camera (much like me), but her shots were jaw-dropping. She has a keen eye for artistry and detail (as my peer puts it) and the best of all is that she’s a Filipina… wooohhhoo… this just proves that you don’t need those expensive DSLRs to produce those stunning effects, your eyes are your best lens and experience is the best teacher (as everybody puts it).

It is now settled. This blog will be a photo-blog to house my shots and I’ll purchase a new domain from poytspot for my rantings slash emo entries. The metamorphosis will not be in effect until july or mid august so this is sorta heads up…

photo community, here I come!!

blocked…yet again!!

You read it right people! All of the websites that I deemed “helpful” and “educational” are now blocked (again!) here at the office thanks to the new and improved websense catcher… wtf!! Websites ranging from blogs (blgger and the likes, including this site) to forums (cospaly ph), from digital art to photography (deviantart) are now inaccessible. Humans are born resourceful and we have found a couple of proxy sites to bypass this friggin websense. But the thing about the proxies is that after a couple of days (2 days max), they will get caught and be blocked by websense. It’s like being added to the masterlist of the websense catcher thus being blocked. We are running out of proxies to use and I am about to go crazy!!

On a side note, things are looking great with the photographer but I am being tempted to toy with her…nnnoooooo!!! I must fight this urge whom many have fallen victim! I’ve been listening to scars of a failing heart by typecast when the thought occurred to me. The emo-nessu inside me plus the fact that the rainy season is upon us intensifies this motive.

Tasukete minna!! T___T

alodia as one of the judges for m3 con!

Another con goeth and another con cometh! The 2008 mangaholix manga mania or simply put M3 is the next con to hit the mainstream here in the Philippines! Boasting a wide array of manga collections, both indie and official mangas, this is one event that a manga lover should not miss. Aside from the endless sea of stalls selling…uuhhmmm, well manga, there are also some side dishes that will entice everybody to have a good time. An on-the-spot drawing contest will be held as well as the ever-popular cosplay catwalk. One of the judges for the said catwalk is no less than the amazing alodia gosiengfiao (a.k.a edjie) – an artist slash cosplayer slash model that really knows her stuff! Aside from edjie, her friend slumberdoll (which I dunno the real name), will also have a piece of the action at m3. According to their blog, they will be selling some hardcopies of their photoshoots in various sizes. Slumberdoll is one of the persons that I idolize in the photography genre. She’s still in college and yet she produced stunning shots. If you don’t believe me, be there at m3 con and see her shots of edjie… they are all awesome!!

M3 will be held at SMX convention center near SM mall of asia at the end of May so better get revved up for another fun-filled event!

Sadly, I won’t be able to attend this particular con as I am saving some dough for the action figures to be bought at toycon. Meaning, I won’t have any pix of the cosplayer as well as edjie and slumberdoll. This is a once-in-a-blue moon encounter with both edjie and slumberdoll and am gonna miss it.. wwwwaaaaaahhhhh!!!!!

things to be done at my funeral

- no fuc*in make-up

- elegy choices
o hikari (orchestra)
o winter IV
o canon in d (orchestra)

- don’t tell any of my tropa(s) that I am deads except when they ask.

- Black casket (pero pag expensive kahit yung regular na lang)

- Ibigay ang NDS kay Masi

- Ang Ipod ay ibigay kay Tin

- Kay Coy ang PS2

- I saw heroes’ casket being covered with flag, I want mine to be enveloped by my akatsuki robe.

- Hayaan lang ang mga anime/action figs ko satabi ng PC… babalikan ko sila

- Give my final fantasy 8 necklace (griever) to jennylyn THE DAY AFTER my burial

- Huwag gagalawin ang PC para may magamit sila ate and Tin

- Wag galawin ang necklace na suot ko… isama ito hanggang hukay

- Sell my internal organs to have funds for the house

- Give my digital cam to eldest sister

- Babalikan ko si reggie to make his life a living hell


Note: if the recipients declined on the gifts I gave them (because they’re afraid), don’t sell them. Cherish them for I will visit them often

nueva ecija

I went on an excursion a couple of days ago to somewhat alleviate me from the impending boredom brought forth by the long weekend. I went to nueva ecija – home of the natives and freakishly huge, huge guavas. I’ve no idea about their specialty or famous landmark but those are the things that I remembered the most.

During the trip, I asked myself “will the 3-4 hour trip to nueva ecija be worth it?”. Midway to the extraction point, I wasn’t disappointed at what I saw. I was literally one with the towering mountains! And of course, having the digital camera, I took a lot of shots. One of the reasons for this trip is to mainly explore and practice my “photography skills” and see if I got the “touch”. Arriving at the destination, a crystal clear, free-flowing rapid of the lake beckons right before my very eyes! I was so psyched that I immediately scour the place to look for the perfect backdrop! 80% of my stay on the place was spent on taking nothing but fantastic photos both of the panoramic view and the locals. The other 20% was for the exploration and bathing on the rapids.

As I was taken by the place, my mind poked at me telling me to stay there either for a couple of months or for good. This was mainly because of the simplicity of their lifestyle. Sure they don’t have the towering skyscrapers but who needs them when you’ve got the whole mountain for yourself. They don’t have any malls or convenient store but who needs them when you can literally pick the up the foods that you want. And they most definitely not have any technological gadgets but my digital camera will suffice and I’ll never get tired of capturing the shots brought forth by the atmosphere. I already asked a local there (though on a friendly banter) if they are willing to help me should I decide to stay there. Surely enough, their reply was “we will take you and feed you should you decide to stay here.” I told this fact that am thinking to the photographer. I told her head-on that if I’d stay there either for a couple of months or for good, will she be sad. And she expressed her thoughts on my take on things and pour her emotions on what I told her and the rest was an evening of emotional sh*t.

I decided to head back home together with the experience that was well worth of the 4-hour trip.

jennylicious part II

as promised, here's the sonnet that i wrote for the jennylicious ^_^.. i managed to get her go signal to post it here.. a trivia regarding this sonet, the original title of the sonnet is supposed to be jennylicious but was altered to etenia in the last minute ^__^.. this sonnet was composed by me to her... especially for her.. enjoy

Eternia

It’s been a while
Since I last heard your voice
Posing a threat and dominance
As if I had no choice

It has been a while
Since I last heard your laugh
As if telling everything’s ayt
And that we don’t give a fuck

It has been a while
Since our last huddle
All those points and pep talks
Saying “we can pull this off together”

It has been a while
And am missing you so
Even those times when you sez
“dude! Ang buraot mo!”

It’s been eternity
Since we last argue for a user call
When you was on the enhancement team
I was thanking them all

It has been a long time
Since I last uttered these words
“I appreciate everything you do
respect, love and thanks is all I have for you”